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Longlisted for the Women’s Prize for Non-Fiction 2025: the profound and life-affirming memoir about finding our way in a chaotic world

If fish don't exist, what else do we have wrong?

As a child, Lulu Miller's scientist father taught her that chaos will come for us all. There is no cosmic destiny, no plan. Enter David Starr Jordan, 19th-century taxonomist and believer in order. A fish specialist devoted to mapping out the great tree of life, who spent his days pinning down unruly fins, studying shimmering scales and sealing new discoveries into jars of ethanol.

At a time when Lulu's life is unravelling, David Starr Jordan beckons. Reading about Jordan's sheer perseverance after an earthquake shattered his collection, Lulu stumbles upon an unexpected antidote to life's unpredictability. But lurking behind the lore of this mighty taxonomist lies a darker tale waiting to be told: one about the human cost of attempting to define the form of things unknown.

This is a story unlike any other you've experienced before. It's about a very tall man with a walrus moustache, the injustices and unexpected deliverances of the universe, love that strikes like lightning and about why fish don't exist after all.

©2021 Lulu Miller (P)2020 Simon & Schuster Animals Biographies & Memoirs Biological Sciences Outdoors & Nature Professionals & Academics Science Science & Technology

Critic reviews

'A sumptuous, surprising, dark delight' Carmen Maria Machado

'Fast-moving, deftly balanced, full of surprises' Guardian’s Book of the Day

‘A bold and original blend of memoir and science’ Elizabeth Buchanan
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Lulu Miller, uses the strange and elaborate story of David Star Jordan’s life to weave a tale of her own quest for answers. What makes life worth living when everything is moving towards inevitable entropic decay? How do we go on in the face of chaos? In retelling Jordan’s life story, Miller is able to explore these questions while seamlessly challenging the some of life’s most powerful narratives - that there is inherent meaning, that humans are at the top of a hierarchy of life, and that we should maintain these beliefs at all. Loved it!

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